"stucked in a situation where nobody can understand. i wish so much to move along, but my feet are stapled to the ground. stapled deep into my bones. it hurts so much to stay, but if i pull myself out now to seek recovery, the road to where i’ll be is too much an unknown for me. why did you not protect me when i needed you the most? where are you? where can i find myself deep inside your heart? or was i never there? were all your words falsifications? i can’t think anymore, i need a breather, but i lost my breath. relationships are always this confusing."